Dark, the days I spend alone
Waiting for that childish moan
That says she will just keep on talking
But, I want to leave, and keep on walking

Away, away, from what I hear
Betraying me with words so dear
What she meant with what she did
I won't forgive, it can't be hid

I can no longer bear to hear her talk
But I can't just away and walk
For happenstance has placed me there
And I cannot just leave like air

So, silent like a stone I sit
Wondering why I'm in this pit
And words cannot express my thought
Of deepest need and greatest want

Yet happenstance has placed me there,
And all I can do is sit and stare
At that girl who's oh, so fair
But it doesn't seem like she would care

She falters not in what she speaks
But she won't listen all that well
I'd let her talk for many weeks
Then she sent my heart to hell

She asked me for my help indeed
And helping her would help my need
And so I helped her, for a time
Helped her plainly. Did no crime

Was it happenstance that placed me there?
I don't know, and yet i care
The question that could break the stillness
Caused by my heart's only illness

Would lead me to a lonely, twisting path
Filled with anger, filled with wrath

Distrust that deadly foe
Who fills my soul with love, then woe
She would seem to like me so,
Then ignore me...
Should I care?
No.

When I was young my mom left me
Now I don't trust anyone
I know my heart will be forever cleft
But I want to be healed. I don't want to be left

And yes, I cared what that girl thought
I feared she would deny my heart
Break me open and tear me apart
But she stopped in the middle and so I depart

My distrust caused my heart to woe
And I fear she loved me, loved me so
It's not all lost, though. Life moves on
Perhaps it was nothing and I'm a pawn
In a game Gods play to pass the time
Making me crazy enough to rhyme

But, if it be, and Gods play so,
What can they predict, just what do they know?
Can they predict what I will do?
If it be so, then I am doomed

But I can change the way I play
And I can choose to defy the rules
I can make them rue the day they chose to pick me to play their game
For I can see it's just a game, and so my moves will stay the same.

If they watch me, I pity them.
To watch my day to look for gems.
They'll find none in this life-long game
For my days are much, much the same

And if Gods intwine their lives with ours
Our lives are short, but merely hours
So, Gods, they'd need so watchful be,
That they'd be bored much more than me

I cannot think they would do so
But, I cannot with surety know
And all the words I issue forth
Will not change southward into north
And all the games that Gods would play
Would not change the human way

We cannot help but be ourselves
We're not Gods' toys, high on some shelves
We have our own needs, true and real
That we pursue with fiery zeal

We will not lose in games of chance
We shall move on, and happenstance...

Like the wind, it will depart,
But a memory in our hearts

And one girl is just one girl
She's just a part of this whole world
If she causes undue sadness
I'll let her be, with untold gladness
Life's a game of chance. I see

So, to keep the pain at bay
I will keep that girl away
And happenstance, my guide by day
Will set me free from there
And I'll float on, just like the air
With no destination, Without a care